I've seen you watching the shadows with unseeing eyes, trying hard to sleep at night, awaiting the remnants of a half remembered dream...
Sometimes I watch the sweat trickle down your neck or your eye lashes twitching when you're asleep. Your eyes move beneath your eye lids and your lips are smiling. I've pondered this dream you've tried to explain to me but had I no time amidst my corporate tales. You breathed in when I brawled, like mother did, every time father would get angry at her when I was just a child. Like her, you created an ever growing space around you, absorbing all the negative energy.
You quietly slept when I pondered over your words, re-read them and rebuilt them in permutations. I peaked into your recollection about when you first fell in love with me. Then about how you felt that you were but a prisoner of that love. You wept while I reaped the happiness of your sacrifices. You cared for me while I was busy ignoring your silent pleas. You spared your dreams when I was locking you and pulling you along in mine...
I watched you shiver as your slender arms were wrapped around yourself in the cold. Had I hogged up the covers again? And I remembered the first time I held an umbrella all for you so you wont get wet on that rainy night you blushed and said "yes" to me... I remembered the smile on your lips that had vanished over the years from being what everyone wanted you to be. I remembered how you loved the windows open at night but you'd learnt to leave it closed because I didn't want you to dream. I'd found my calling but I never realized how you'd left yours for me...
When I pulled every inch of you for myself, I've seen you watching the shadows with unseeing eyes, awaiting the remnants of that half remembered dream... I've pondered your dreams over and over again. I've tucked your hair behind your ears so I could see your smile. I've left the windows open tonight for I wanted you to think beyond me. I let the wind blow your hair like how you've always liked it. I wanted to remind myself that I didn't own you just because you were once a dream come true.
I fell asleep, letting you go free because I loved you so and whatever I did, I did because I didn't know... When I woke up, the windows were closed. But you were smiling at me...
