The Wick of My Soul

Hath i, not waited ages 
For all things both great and small
For wat drives me and yet awaits the hearts stages
She who knoweth me, my heart, my all... 

And yet more, along along in a dream space, 
Hours, months and years hence
Shall i go another million ways, 
And meet the one, the difference. 

For someday, shall i bequeath my heart, 
Leave it at the mercy of fate
Be unwanted and ages apart
Yet, shall there be an end to this lifetime's wait?

The course thou said, be never smooth nor tender,
Yet noone there be, who see-eth my heart in pain,
Doomed by yet a curse, not a moment to splendor,
For where i was left, i must remain...

Shaken awake, from a dream i wished to believe
Dreams be dwelled in, life never be whole, 
Hath i still, never a wish to leave, 
But gingerly lit it was,and died, the wick of my soul....

A Wish...

There was I, on a cloudy day,

Sate below a willow tree,

Wishing firm for she would say…;

Asked I, “What must I do for thee?”

There she was, a lifetime’s wish,

But hath she, her own free will,

Nor could I, plead nor show my heart squeamish

For, a lifetime’s worth, or a moment still…

Braided hair, prayerful eyes and gentle brows,

And a smile to go with thee,

Amidst a dream, amongst my vows,

Could I wish, they were waving to me?

For a hundred years, have I been in love,

Yet, known not have lived that much,

Only have I known now somehow,

Or felt it from a moment’s touch.

Live must I, in this wish of wishes

Worthy not I? For not me to say,

But, like a dream it flourishes…

A lifetime it leads, dies and withers away…

Irony

Hide your hurt with a smile,
Wipe ur tears and,
Beguile the world with dreams of laughter.
Sing away while you have cried,
Laugh and take the world for a ride,
Into lands of happiness,
Into realms of fantasy.
Hide from the world, your soul, searing sorrow,
Enjoy and make the world enjoy,
As if there was no tomorrow.
And yet, accept the world's brick bats with a smile,
For sorrow too lasts for, like joy,
But for a short while...

Calm before the storm...

The drive was a bizarre experience... As life had always been. Though we have a million wishes and yet another set of dreams that we could never compromise, everything in life came with a price tag. Here I was on a rickety bus, with the heart of a child, happy and thrilled. The sleepy and nodding heads of the rest of the passengers didn't dampen my spirits. For the first time in a really long time, I knew where I was headed. I knew what i wanted.

Even though, uncertainty loomed large ahead like black clouds. It was like a bad conscience that I couldn't shake. Yet, for this stretch of time, life had reduced to a singular course. A simple black highway in the dead of the night...

I thought of the past with longing. Memories disturbing as the machine carried me to a fast, corporate life. "Everything happened for a reason." The old battered cliche still seemed to provide a sense of comfort, like a smug, dry home in the middle of the rain. I closed my eyes for a minute from the darkness. Suprisingly, closing them seemed to lighten my path. A million dreams waved from the niches of my mind. The breeze blew against my face and the night hadn't lost its frenzy. I felt the reluctance of my eyes to open. The dreams seemed to beckon me... I fell asleep...

The times always brought in the change. Reluctance came as a nasty side effect. It was like leaving a part of me behind, out into this fast moving world. A world that taught you to love, care.. while you were a child... And taught you to forget what you learned then as you grew.

There was a sudden jolt. I was shaken awake. Something that was so clear in the dream made no sense now. The bus rushed past the city, shops, people and the traffic. Fighting not to get caught in the ambush of vehicles. Flawless and bold in an insane world. A few more moments and it was my stop. My turn. My chance. There was a storm raging in the horizon. The plunge ahead was going to be bizarre, as life had always been. And now, more than ever, there was no turning back.

In an insane world, it was the sanest choice...