Mom, I'm hungry... :(

Mmmmm... The sweet taste of bread... Never rejoiced it so much before tonight...

Rewind back to about 2 hours before. There I am trying, getting of my bed and walking up to the wall socket to figure out why my mosquito liquid vaporizer thingy does not work. Well its all lighted up alright and smells good, but it ain't doing a thing against the mosquitos... Damn u! I looked back miserably at the bed and then to my laptop.. Ha! Facebook was calling out to me. Too wide awake to sleep again, there i was chatting with people and commenting of photographs.

It's past three in the night. I tell my online friend to hold on for a minute and i head to the fridge in the kitchen to get something to eat. Oh Christ! Its empty! Only a bottle of water. And I was starving now... I wouldnt wanna tell you how i looked at the time lol :P  I walked up to my room and started on NFS underground (for the nerds, its a racing game guys) on my laptop. 15 mins and i cant even win a race properly (hey i'm usually good at it). oh man! This is getting bad. Sleep? no...! Finally I make up my mind to go to the town. It was 4 and I was hopeful of some shop to open. I get on my bike who (personified) doesnt seemed to start. I did get the message he wanted to give me (man, go walking or something. I'm sleepy!). Well, no denying the cold and rainy weather would put anything to sleep, except me!

Revving him to life, I was cruising along the highway, past giant trucks that made me look like a fly. I was half expecting to be caught by the cops asking me where I was heading to in the night. "Stomach First!" I said to myself. Well I did think that the stalls at the railway station should be open... Guess I wasnt lucky. If my bike could speak, he would have told me, "Wtf? This is why you woke me up? To see the empty railway station?" Somehow, I felt there was a saturation point. Overcome with emotion (hey am not so fussy about food, quit thinking like that !!! Lol), I hit my bike to its stand and slowly sat down on it. Probably thinking I could wait till someone would open some shop...

Standing wasnt comfortable. I was feeling pretty tired too. Sitting on the seat and stretching out, i lay on the bike, with my head against its visor and my legs on the tail light. I was used to lying down and sleeping on bikes when I'd go on long rides. This was gonna be a long night. probably...! Some kind man, pls open ur shop... It was a pleasant night though, now that i was jobless I was starting to notice things around me. Homeless people slept on the pavement and on the steps to the railway station under filthy sheets that kept them warm. Families and nomads who walked around begging for something to push another day in their lives.

My cell phone rang into the silence. It was mom. I tried to sound as cheerful as I could. She sounded wide awake from across the seas. It was late there too. Before she said anything, I blurted out, "Mom i'm hungry..."  "Yeah? I;m having noodles and watching tv!" She said. Her reply was instant. "Nice mom!" I exclaimed. Oh that felt a lot worse now. Grrrrr! Steam gushing from my ears! "No, was joking. woke up thinking about you..." She said. A smile dawned on my face. A few more minutes and she sounded like she could come down here to make me something to eat but I didnt tell her it was so bad. After I hung up, I remembered how at home I'd simply not eat something made specially for me just coz it was not hot enough or coz I was "bored" of it. (hey I was a kid!!! :P) Guess we never realize the value of something till its gone huh?  Hmmm... Oh, I hate memories, they always try to find a weak spot. Drat!

Stretching on my bike, i heard the sound of a shutter being opened! Yay!!!! I looked around for where the sound had come from. Saw one in the distance. Before I knew what i was doing, I was already riding to the shop. I looked at him. Was this a workshop or something? I didnt find anything eatable or drinkable in there... Oh No! No.....!    Hey wait, there's a stove! Yay! "gingerly I asked him, if there was something to eat." Tea and two day old bread! Aha! Perfect. At least he told me honestly it was old. I was at wits end while the water was slowly being boiled and finally i got it to drink. Had this funny feeling that dad was around me, "When did you start eating bread without jam or nutella?" I laughed out. The man stared at me for a few seconds and then turned to his work. Yeah well, I did look like a adrenaline junkey with all the messed up hair and red eyes. But do adrenaline junkeys drink tea? ha.. Whatever...

I bought the rest of the packet of bread and paid the man a little extra and he smiled at me as I rode away... When i was home, I thought, outside in the rain and cold, where my fellow humans slept homeless (I'd make a good humanitarian huh? or a philosopher? I would have. Computer science ruined me... Lol.. ) and men ran shops to earn so that their children could sleep warm at home, I felt a lot smaller in life... And a lot satisfied even if it was 2 days old bread lying on my table.

I sat down by my bed... I looked up at the wall socket and thought... The sweet taste of 2 day old bread... Never rejoiced it so much before tonight... If only that stupid mosquito liquid vapourizer thingy had worked properly................!  Funny way life teaches u things... :P

Keep reading guys!!!!! :D 

Life, along the years...

If it hadnt been for cotton eyed joe,

I'd be married long time ago... 

Where did you come from

Where did you go

where did you come from cotton eyed joe!

hay hay hay hay, hay hay hay!!!

Well, thats a techno country song from a band called Rednex. Its half past 11 in the night and i'm having some serious volume on the deck with this song. I still remember the first time i heard the song, a few years back. My dad heard it and developed an instant hating to it. It was like some sort of allergic reaction for his ear drums. Whenever i played it, it made him angry. (Devil smiley here). I loved the song. Dunno how many of you guys actually hate it like my dad, well this entry isnt about the song. So keep reading. :) 

It became a routine for me to play the song everyday morning when i woke up to go for school. And the bad news for my dad was, the old tape i had, had the same song repeatedly recorded over and over again and plus I had a speaker connection to the bathroom. (no kidding k, I'm very known for having audio equipment in the bathroom, even now :P) But well, dad never said anything to me, even though the song was so loudly blaring into the otherwise silent home. Well dont ask me, why this song, well i guess it never made me feel sleepy. lol.. I hated waking up in the morning and was usually late. Thats why I switched to travelling to school by van instead of bus, coz i always missed the bus. And i even walked to school once, am very well known for walking for about 2hours and 20 mins. :) true story, no lies... 

And the van people, well, my poor dad would go outside and tell them to wait... (devil smiley again)

Ok, coming back to waking up in the mornings. I my bathroom, there used to be a big mirror and a small ceramic stand just below the mirror. I would go stand near the mirror and put my hands on the stand and then rest my head on it and sleep, standing right there. Time would slow down, the silence would engulf me. I'm walking by this small but beautiful street and there is this building where there lives a girl who I've never seen before. But i know she is there. She puts her head out of the window as i stare at her and she smiles, so shy to even look into my eyes. As i continue to look, she says something. I dont understand. I try and ask her to speak loudly. And she says something again. I try to make out what it is. 630. what was it? 630...  eh? errr? Wha???? There is a loud bang heard nearby and another loud 6:30. I snap... Oh God, was that mom or dad at the door? If its dad, i'm dead when i get out of the bathroom. I scream out, "whats the time?" to get someone to reply. Ha!! Its mom! But its 6:30. Probably the van is just outside home. Not again...

And there is this super cool brushing and yeah of course sitting on the closet and then super speed bath and i'm out at 6:40. Yay! home free... And things changed once i bot the song in. You'd probably know why if you have heard the song. I used to get to the bathroom but still was late coz i'd spend sometime dancing to the beat. And finally when i go, i'd not switch the tape off. Coz i'd wanna hear it till i get outside the house. And thats when finally, my angry dad tells mom, switch tat damn thing off! Well, he'd never tell me anything. Guess thats what makes him him! 

And well, the whole thing, why did i come to it all now. Simple, coz i'm miles away from home and am listening to the song. The only thing that changed is that dad laughs when i play the song now. see, thats what happens when you play something too many times. And finally to the point, I just miss home...

This room is really faintly lit. Its miles away and years away from the home i told you about. It was past the gate when i was leaving mom and dad and coming here to do my higher studies, that i first saw my mom crying. She doesnt cry for anything, or i've never seen her do that. I rememberm how i had told my room and all the gadgets in my room a final goodbye. Coming here, this room, where i'm now, was so different. It didnt hold my scribblings and my extra electrical fittings and all... And over the years, i had tried a lot to make this one at least resemble that one. Yeah, well after all the holes i managed to drill in, it looks kinda similar! Lol! And this has become another diary page of my life. Though sitting here, I would always miss home, mom and dad, bro, this is still another home. 

Why am i bragging? Coz this is another page that is to be turned. Parting and goodbye is imminent, with the place, with the house (called fort mafia) and my favourite room. The faint light adds to the beauty, rather mess that is in my room. Coz you probably cant see its messy in the dark. Its all sweet and nice.. lol... The late night study time with friends, sitting and studying , even joking, laughing, playing, gaming and so many things.. While one guy is busy studying, the other is busy getting his ear phones soldered coz he slept on it last night and the other is busy dyeing his hair, even God does not known why and the rest are dancing in the bathroom with loud music (dont ask why)... 

And there are pictures. to remind you of all the crazy things you did at a point in ur life. Only pictures and memories. Only now, as i walk around, it feels so empty. No more lose papers lying around (coz i had to clean it up before handing it over to the owner)  and no more unclean dusty corners, no more huge huge spiders in deadly sticky webs watching you sleep and probably thinking about biting ur ass... no more unclean toilets (ya, i know tats kinda gross, everyone's lazy though!) and so many things thats just not there... just not going to be there... 

I still remember those late nights when we were so hungry after sitting up and studying... we'd walk to the nearby shop to have over salted omelet (well tats the way these people here make it) and where all of us 10 guys would be fighting for a few slices of bread. But it used to fill our stomachs. We used to be satisfied in the finger dipped tea (yea, u know the way they bring it to us on the road side shops, i call it multitasking.. perhaps a lil dirty version though), we never had our tables wiped.. the wooden roof of the shop might be leaking in the rain and the wind shaking it threateningly. We never needed a dolby system to enjoy, just that small radio in the shop was enough for us to sing along. And the kerosene lamps hung up would attract all the insects to us, yet the warmth it gave was a heaven against the cold. 

i even think i'll miss the insects i loved killing....:)

Even the sleep all huddled up together with about 8 guys in a room, be it in the cold night or a tired day at college, it was always the same. And yeah, thats how we once broke my bed cot. But later it was screwed and fastened to the wall :) we never give up do we? lol! 

Somehow, the years have passed, we never had a record.. nor a diary entry (we were lazy!) and we never thought any of the dum things would actually be worth remembering. My life, over the years... From school to college..and now done with college too... i'm still crazy.. always gonna be one i guess. :)

And here i am, during the last few days. flicking through photographs and slam books... listening to the one song that made me think of all this now... 

If it hadnt been for cotton eyed joe,

I'd be married long time ago... 

Where did you .....

.........

it aint a nostalgic song.... but go ahead and try it.. happy listening! lol!!!!

Oh and i forgot, got a viva exam tomorrow.. I'll keep in touch!

It remains just a blog...

It was a sweet Saturday afternoon. They’d slept in late. Sitting up in bed, he held her hand, as she smiled at him, the same way she would when she would watch him sleep sometimes. She pushed him off the bed asking him to have a bath, playfully kicking him on the bottom as he whined like a small kid. He hurried through with washing himself, eager to get back to her. Half expecting her to still be lazily huddled up in bed, he came back to the bedroom. Not finding her there, he walked up quietly to the window upstairs. She stood there, still in her robes, innocent like a kid who had seen a butterfly. 

The gentle breeze seemed to love the ruffles of her sweet scented hair. She was beautiful, he thought. Walking up behind her, he put his arms around her waist and rested his chin on her shoulder. She slowly rested her head against his, not at all surprised by his unannounced arrival. She knew he would, like always. And they would just stand here, feeling the breeze, watching the small birds fly around the courtyard below. She loved the warmth of his chest against her back, it always made her feel protected, and it always had the answers to everything that ever troubled her.

“Honey, I’m starving…” he whispered in her ears. She almost mouthed the words as he said them; she knew this was coming too. Smiling at him and turning and hugging him, she kissed him on the cheek. “I’ll go see if the TV is working”, he said to her. She gave him her typical nod that said ‘Lazy bum’.  She came down dressed up and walking down to the hall, she found a small note by her purse. It said, “Just going out to get something for you. Be ready for a surprise.”  She walked into the kitchen to make some breakfast though it was a bit too late for that. “We’re so crazy”, she thought.

An hour later, he came home and found her waiting at the dining table, probably angry, yet eager to know what the surprise was. She didn’t seem to look up at him as he came in. He sat beside her, looking into her eyes as she tried to evade his. She couldn’t help but smile. Slowly they breakfasted, talking about the weirdest things and laughing their heads off over stuff that only they could find to be funny. Though she kept demanding about the surprise, he kept mum, to an extent that she actually believed that he had simply made it all up.

“Why don’t we dance?” he asked her all of a sudden when they had got back to their room. She didn’t know what to say. She had only seen stuff like this in the movies. But she was sure that it was his first experience too. As the music softly wove into the silence of the day, they danced, more like they hugged and moved silently. The cool floor seemed to tickle her or it was his arms that were wrapped around her, she felt all funny... He slowly knelt beside her, smiling deeply. Kissing her hand, he took a small ring from his pocket. She stood still, smiling down at him with tears in her eyes. “I know you can’t decide now. It’s a long way from here. But I just want you to know, you’re mine.”  He slipped the ring onto her finger. He stood up and held her tightly. And they kissed… 

My first ever...

 Yeah you guessed right, this is all about the hello, aloha, greetings people!

They say, there is a first time for everything... Ha well, its me and the first time with me blogging! :) Well yeah, read a lot of them over the years... Maybe I'll just make this short and sweet... Dont wanna bore u right in the start! :P lol.. 

SO just gonna say a lil about me... Well, if u actually asked me to describe myself in one word, CRAZY would be the best one! Walking down the streets of life, I've picked up a lot of stuff, the harsh, the cold and even sometimes a warm shoulder. They say that the world used to be a much better place. But the world is still the same, only that there is less in it... Far too much were those times i enjoyed watching the sea with my friend and singing rhymes, well, only that the sea is still there, and those rhymes forgotten and either of us entwined in our own lives... 

Brevity be it, sometimes the reason for such a rush, coz there be no time to watch the flowers smile, to sit lost watching the sunset or simply to even say thank u... For after all its a race to get all that you want... :) This is my side of it, am someone who still takes time to watch the slow things in life. Believe me wen i say I have far more pressing things to do, yet, it feels good to sit by the sea side, sipping on some beer and watch the sunset and enjoy the faint drizzle without having a single worry in the world..

 Only that worrying about anything is a matter of perspective & depends on the sorta person you are. And even acceptance is, like you wanna watch it all from behind a glass window or be out there, all upto u....! 

And there we come to the paradox, i wanted to keep this short... That be all mateys! for now that is... I'm sure to get back when my head's got something in the entwined cabling of its circuitry... Life is story told by some idiot. So keep reading!!!!